Breath of Life 

Wonder what makes me feel this immense void,
As if my thoughts were asleep,
My aimless, meaningless steps?
 

What is this strange feeling,
That follows me in my day to day,
That doesn’t leave me, consumes me and dominates me?
 

Wonder what you take from my life,
The pleasure of appreciating the beautiful, nature…
From wanting to have to wanting to be?
 

What is this thing that comes and stays,
that comes and stays and doesn’t go away
, making me suffer?
 

 What is this thing that makes me feel,
Right next to me what I so want to forget,
Right next to me… what can’t I want?
 

What is it… what is it that consumes me every day?
From so much living,
I can almost know…
 

I feel it’s HEALTH…
 

This longing that I feel and that makes me suffer.
This longing that I’ve already learned to live with…
This longing that doesn’t know how to live without me.
 

 

At home. London, October 23, 1994
MARIA LUCIA DA COSTA

POPPIES AGAINST THE NIGHT SKY

Breath of Life Poppies against the night sky,Remind me of endless fields of red poppies,Drenched and crimson, with the blood of wounded and dying soldiers, Still dressed in their dirty and ragged battle green uniforms.  Poppies against the night sky,Remind me of...

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MY POOR MOTHER

Breath of Life One day the flames of our lives will be extinguished.Each one of us will die in their own way... in their own moment.This is a very true and cruel realityThat will touch us some day.  Poor Mother, how can I look at you without feeling sad?Like a...

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NOT BEING YOU

Breath of Life Control your feelings, And you will have shadows in your heart. Control your ambitions, And you will be nothing in life. Control your words, And you will silence your ideas. Control your emotions, And you will always keep them inside you. Control your...

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A THRILLING EXPERIENCE

Breath of Life It was so many years ago. An extremely remarkable day, so I will never forget it: "The day I met the Pope John Paul II". I was still living in Brazil. My husband was coming to London to business meetings, and invited me to come with him on a trip to...

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MY CHRISTMAS ORDER

Breath of Life LIVE A DREAM... Sleep without thinking and wake up without feeling. that Christmas has arrived And another year has passed. Sleeping and not being able to remember, That I won't be able to touch, hug and love, my dear children That that night they will...

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