Breath of Life
I am afraid of happiness.
For me a sign of sadness, anxiety… suffering.
I am afraid of the sensation of joy,
Because life gives us is feeling of being happy
Only for a few moments.
As if we were play things in life’s hands,
Life gives and takes from us our wishes,
As if our feelings were not so important.
I am afraid of the unknown.
The giant, prepotent and magnificent,
Uncontrollable in its wishes, invincible in its evil.
We are pushed through life
As a river in furious despair.
I am afraid of happiness, because like us,
Is dominated by the prepotent giant…
The magnificent unknown.
At home. London, October 1992
MARIA LUCIA DA COSTA
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